o the bitter nights

why do we as people freak out about the smallest things? especially here. we always say hakuna matata or if youve mastered religious speech "its all in Gods hands" or "its in Gods will" but how many of us live like that. I know i sure as heck dont. Tonight a series of events happened that made me very frustrated. Should they have frustrated me? probably not but of course they did. Alot of it is because ive made the decision to put God on the rocks lately. Its ridiculous. Ive neglected doing the things that I know make me happy. The Lord lifts me up and is always there for me but i seem to not care about that as much as i like to  think I do. So how to counteract this seemingly endless circle of events? I dont know for sure. Read more pray more. dont do dumb things. Those all help. but its about immersing your life in the truth and beauty of God however that takes hold. every minute of every day. O Lord im sorry for just being juvenile and deciding subconsciously that i dont need you. Forgive me for being ridiculous. As I get older I begin to realize how dependant I am for a savior. Because David Hutchens is weak and selfish and arrogant. But O lord when i am walking in rythmm with you I feel strong and selfless and humble. I want more of that.

who cares about synchronized diving?

I wish that NBC in there coverage of the olympics could somehow show events that appeal to me. It does not that help that the commentators are a joke and they are annoying. Also thanks to my friends in the ESPN organization which i can never escape because they are everywhere, You know half of the results before they air here in America. I enjoy track and field, swimming, ill even watch gymnastics maybe.... but probably not. but neways there are so many good events to watch. Probably the most compelling thing to watch is the US mens basketball team.....or as pundits in the media have taken to calling them, the redeem team. I do not like this name because i was under the impression that we were supposed to win everything especially basketball. There should be nothing to redeem. We are America and we should beat every other team by 3o. I dont care if we get beat in badminton by a man from singapore. but i feel embarrassed if we get beat in one of "our sports". So i know were ill be when they play. watching and hoping we beat everyone really bad. which brings us to preseason football. preseason football is a flirt. you scroll down the guide and you see that football is on.....but you know its preseason. You know its not the same but you flip to it anyway. and just like that girl who tells you to call them but when you do she can never hang out.....preseason football breaks your heart everytime. because you never really like the flirty girl but you kind of talk yourself into maybe liking them. Preseason football does the same thing to me. It breaks my heart because its not the same as real football just like that girl you call when your heart is broken or you miss someone is not the same as the girl you really like. Im done with you forever preseason football. youve broken my heart to many times.

we must be the change we wish to see in the world

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we must allow christ through us to be the change in the world that we wish to see

we cannot do anything apart from christ working through our lives

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